Ahhh, this topic raised again
We are coming up to Christmas again, so why not. Pre-warning, this is part of the new PM model with included TMI programming. I did try to walk past this, but it seems nowadays I have to say what's on my mind. Not all the time thankfully. Sigh, lost this debate with myself, although I will keep it short.
I don't like Christmas (or my birthday). I only have one wish every Christmas and that is that I won't have to spend the next one with my family. As a holiday it usually ends up enforcing early programming that I'm worthless. I sit here thinking back and shake my head at the number of times my parents were able to turn a years worth of healing back in just a month.
This year is different. This year I know I'm worth loving. They can keep their crap, as I'm not taking it on this time. This year I also know that I won't be spending Christmas with them next year.
So, what's Christmas mean to me? An unwanted present I'm returning to sender